Confessions of a Denominator

I am a denominator
the one recurring factor in the
vicious cycle that is my life,….my existence

I am obsessed with romance
I ignore all self control and throw caution to the wind
I enter relationships at the flick of a switch
driven by my hormones
i date whoever fires off my “feel good” neurones
regardless of if they lack character or respect me
I consider caring friendships that support me least priority
as they can never fulfil my romance fix
i jump in with my eyes closed and never test the water
and leap out scalded , because i never saw the fangs
showing as the lips peeled back behind that charming smile
and then i do it all over again because
well….all that affection ,care attention and support
from the sweet and nice person
still does not make my heart skip a beat
the way that charming devil, key word devil, does

Im lovely, why can’t i find a loving relationship?

I am an attention junkie
I move from person to person
and get attention from wherever i can
i barely pay attention during a conversation if its not about me
I prattle on all about ME ME ME
and check myself out in anything that reflects
i compose songs about myself and sing it to everyone that has ears
I am an emotional leach and i suck as much attention
that i can from you and move on to get a better fix elsewhere

By the way, why don’t you call me anymore?

I am like a tiger on the prowl
waiting to pounce and maul you
immediately you say something that offends me
i am berserker , I’ll tear you to ribbons
if you dare speak to me in any such manner that displeases me
my amnesia for all the wonderful things you said and done
kicks in the moment that you criticise me
i am meticulous about what i condone
and i will not be spoken to, by you or any other
in a manner that i only know, and deem worthy
you are expendable and i can do without you

….Hey ! where have all my friends gone?

I hate conflict and try my best not to rock the boat
I do my best not to offend anyone
and say yes and nod in agreement just to keep the peace
I approach everything in an understanding manner
and try to be as diplomatic as possible
i pay attention and hold my tongue when i should object
because i just don’t have the strength to debate about it
though it may be an issue that need to be addressed
I exercise patience even though you abuse that fact
every single chance that you get with no apology
I am easy to bully, all you have to do is
loose your temper, turn on the water works,
and i apologise even when i’m not in the wrong

Then why like Jabber Jaw, do i get no respect
from those i show nothing but respect?

I love adventure
I am down for whatever and up for anything
I love living for the moment and don’t care for consequences
Whatever is the flava of the moment count me in
life is too short to think about the long term
we might not be here tomorrow so seize the day
if it feels good, just do it
i have all forms of myopia,
my hedonistic desires blur the consequences
of my instant gratification needs
I’m fun, I’m exciting , I’m full of life

Then why is everyone else moving forward
and in meaningful relationships except me?

I have a list of everything that you must be
You are to fufill all my need and desires
as i lean back and make no effort to improve myself
you have to maintain me and be pleasing in my eyes
I verbally strip you down because i have to keep you in check
I show no appreciation, because you already know
Read my mind, you know what i don’t like
Change, Think, Keep that, Stop saying that
it’s just who i am , and i like it that way

Wait , where are you going , Are you leaving me??

I am the Denominator

(C)OLU YOMI OSOSANYA

TERMS & CONDITIONS APPLY

The internet is a fascinating place , the information superhighway, capable of taking you to another world with a fraction of a second. Cross continental messages are sent back and forth within seconds No longer does snail mail hold us ransom from staying in touch with our nearest and dearest. There are so many things on the internet to keep you occupied one could waste an entire day sitting in front of the computer and like a hamster in a wheel ,keep busy but not making any progress .

One thing that you will indefinitely come across on the internet is contracts. Before you get an email address, open a social network account, gain access to certain services on the internet , you must comply to with a Terms & Conditions contract.

A contract that specifies what the term you must agree with to continue receiving the benefits of the service. It usually is a very long contract and most people never read it. They are so eager to receive the service that they just scroll to the bottom and tick the little box that says “i agree”.. Somewhere along the line they may violate that contract and their account becomes suspended and they fail to realise why this happens. Oblivious to the situation they are downcast and try to sort out the problem with the means that fail to resolve the issue.

This happens in many relationships. Two people meet, eager to get going,that they fail to pause to find out what they are getting into. The relationship goes well until one person violates the terms & condition of the other person when it comes to relationship. Oblivious to this fact, the violated reacts against the violator, and the violator is astounded.

The offended goes “You violated my terms&conditions and therefore you must face the consequences”. These consequences could be , a rant, the silent treatment or the dissolution of the relationship. They are essentially telling you , I love/care for you only if you don’t do, this , that or the other. Their love in conditional on you complying to the parameters that they set, sometimes without you knowing those parameters.

This is the type of Love you can except from the world is conditional. A love that is dependent on your performance, on your behaviour , on how much you please and not displease them. Sadly many kids grow up in homes like that, and it’s just a repetition of how their parents were raised and it goes on like that for many generations.

Thankfully the love of God is not like that . He loves his children in-spite of what they do, unconditionally. He will discipline us and chastise us, but he does not love us based on our performance but based on Who HE is and his love for us, even when we mess up.Now THAT is something to be grateful for if nothing else.

The danger of the “follow your heart” message

JEREMIAH 17:9
New International Version (©1984)
The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?
New American Standard Bible (©1995)
“The heart is more deceitful than all else And is desperately sick; Who can understand it?

GOD’S WORD® Translation (©1995)
“The human mind is the most deceitful of all things. It is incurable. No one can understand how deceitful it is.

King James Bible
The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?

In a world where we are told to “follow your heart” . Or do what our heart tells us, and what feels right in our hearts, this is a very disturbing revelation , the musicians and the messages shown here.

How often have our hearts led us astray into wrong relationships. How often have our hearts caused us to do things that we turn around and are appalled at ourselves. How often have we vowed with our “hearts” and a few weeks, months years down the line , we turn our nose up at the very same thing?

A certain singer in the clip below calls her heart the ruler of her being, but it is also public knowledge how many failed marriages that same heart has led her into.

The statements from the satanists here just goes to show how subtle these messages are fed to us through those celebrities that we so admire, and particularly for me the last few seconds of the clip were a shock, particularly as it has been endorsed by the high priests of the Occult.

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